“I decided to never tell my children what my occupation is and what I do for a living because I didn’t want them to feel bad or be ashamed of me. I always wanted to avoid this, that was my intention from the beginning.
My youngest daughter asked me from time to time what I do for a living, but I always tried to avoid her question and gave evasive answers. I simply told her that I am a worker and changed the subject as quickly as possible so that she would forget what she asked me.
Before I went home to my family, every day I got a shower in public bathrooms because I thought that in this way I will arrive home clean and my children will not suspect what I do or ask questions about it.
I did all these things so that they wouldn’t suspect anything and wouldn’t start investigating to find out what their father does during the day. For me, the education of my girls was the most important, I wanted them to focus on education and continue their studies without being worried and without feeling bad for me.
I wanted my girls to hold themselves with respect in front of other people. All I wanted less was for someone to think less of them as everyone thought of me.
I was always embarrassed by other people, that’s why I decided that every income I have will go towards my girls’ education. I want something completely different for them, I want them to have a different life from mine.
Instead of buying new clothes with the money I had, I decided that the wisest thing I could do was to buy books for my girls.
I only asked that they earn my respect in return for our relationship. I worked in cleaning.
Before the day when my daughter was going to apply for college, I didn’t manage to have the money she needed for the application.